Happy Birthday to my Firstborn
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She entered the world crying...
and then she colic-cried for the next year or so after that ;)
Although with that rocky entrance, came such memories that I cherish...the moments that were peaceful & giggly were celebrated & vividly remembered!!
She's much like me, in that she often lives in "extremes"...Ups are AWESOME and Downs feel like the end of the world.
But, with that comes a fierceness...a determination...
She is intensely loyal and constantly desires to see the good in others, even when she has been hurt.
She LOVES with such compassion that tears are only a moment away.
She gets her "justice" gene from me as well...ever the rule follower...and she suffers dismay when she is faced with people that doubt her words, when she knows no other way than to be honest.
Her room isn't the the most organized, but she always has a "project" in the works...
She can be extremely hard on herself and her self-expectations are sky-high...
She is learning confidence and decision-making...she's finding out what she believes & why...
She is my lovely firstborn...
I do not love her because of her grades or her kindness or her popularity...nor because of her athletic abilities or her musical talents...I wouldn't love her any less or more if she excelled or won contests or if she failed...
she does not make me proud for WHAT she does or what she has or hasn't accomplished...
SHE IS A GIFT!
Just HER...just her being WHO she is...
she made me a MOM for the very first time...
She is not perfect and I wouldn't want her to be...
I'm not looking for THINGS or accomplishments on which to brag...
Infact, if I'm being transparent, I'm perfectly fine with her struggling at times...it makes her more empathetic and able to relate to others...it hurts...it hurts me too...but, I know these things make her stronger...
and her heart...OH her heart...
On this celebration day of her birth...
I celebrate the beauty that she is on the inside...
I celebrate the mistakes and the oops...
I celebrate the wins and the achievements...
I celebrate the excitement...
I celebrate the tears...
I celebrate this lovely girl that I get to call my daughter!
Happy Birthday Love!!!
So sweet and perfectly said. <3